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<p>Rachel George is in recovery for <a href="https://medlineplus.gov/opioidsandopioidusedisorderoud.html" target="_blank">opioid use disorder (OUD)</a>. Now she’s sharing her story with NIH MedlinePlus Magazine to let others with OUD know they are not alone and there are people who want to support them. A participant in OUD-related clinical trials at the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) in Baltimore, Maryland, Rachel hopes her experience can help researchers study treatments and better understand addiction.</p>
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<h2>Why did you start taking opioids? What did you know about how they might affect you?</h2>
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<p>I started using opioids in 1997, when I was 15. I used to smoke a lot of weed and take LSD frequently until I experienced a “bad trip” and ended up in an intensive outpatient program. I stopped smoking weed because they gave me <a href="https://nida.nih.gov/research-topics/drug-testing" target="_blank">urine tests</a> and instead sought out drugs such as ecstasy and heroin (an opioid) that would get out of my system faster.</p>
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<p>The only information I had about opioids at that time was from one of my favorite movies. But it did not exactly glamorize the lifestyle. Once I felt the effects of opioids, I had no reason or motivation to stop using them until the legal issues, and later the addiction issues, started.</p>
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<p><i aria-hidden="true" class="fa fa-camera"> </i>Rachel George, pictured here with her late cat McAdoo, has participated in clinical trials for OUD at NIDA. She dedicates her story to McAdoo.</p>
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<p>I have only recently learnt the term “opioid use disorder.” As soon as I heard it, I was relieved to have an identity word that wasn’t “junkie” regarding my addiction. I didn’t know I had a problem with opioids until my 20s when I started doing extreme things to get money to get high. It was also around that time when I started experiencing withdrawal symptoms.</p>
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<p>By then, I had used opioids for about seven years. The withdrawals were not too bad at first—I could sleep through them with the aid of prescription drugs I got from my neighbor—but it turned into a beast I could not ignore. I was in jail when I experienced the worst withdrawal I had ever felt. At home, I had the opportunity to go make money and use. In jail, there was no option. That experience taught me withdrawal has a very heavy mental and psychological side to it.</p>
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<p>Once at a high school party, I decided to whip out my works and shoot up in front of everyone there. I’m pretty sure people there thought I had a problem. My friends knew when I stopped hanging out with them. And my family knew when I told them I was stealing from them and I had been arrested for robbery.</p>
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<p>Living with OUD is like being on a rollercoaster. I have built my life up four or five times just to have it pawned away from a few months of using. I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to keep climbing out of the holes I dug—some deeper than others. But one thing I have realized is it gets harder to pick myself back up each time.</p>
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<p>I haven’t had any serious long-term physical effects from my OUD aside from intravenous scars and deteriorating teeth. Mentally, I’ve learnt I will need to make amends for the things I’ve done during my active addiction, especially to myself. If I don’t take care of that, my mind will surely sabotage everything I try to do in recovery. It takes a lot of mental strength to get clean. I’ve had to deal with legal issues (I am now no longer on probation!) and attempt to find work without lying about myself, all while trying to acclimate back into society.</p>
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<p>Once I talked about my OUD to someone else, I had to do something about it, such as ask myself, “Do I want to use or not?” Naturally, as an addict, my answer will always be that I want to. It takes strength and work to say no, and until then, that was the opposite of what I had been doing.</p>
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<p>When I first realized I had a problem, I went to my mom. We are very close, and she is very “tough love,” so I thought she could fix me. But no one but me can fix me, and it was very unfair to put that expectation on her. I let her know how I was feeling every day, and I told her every time I used. We could not figure out why I continued to use opioids even though I didn’t want to anymore.</p>
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<p>I have always been an “I can do anything” kind of person. I bought a house when I was 22. I have three college degrees. I got my insurance to pay for an elective plastic surgery procedure. I thank my parents for putting that kind of belief in myself.</p>
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<p>So we were all baffled when in 2013, when I was 33, I shot up behind the wheel and overdosed. The car veered off the highway, thankfully not hitting anybody. I literally thank God to this day for that miracle. When I regained consciousness, a cop was knocking on my window, and there were so many people surrounding my car and giving their witness statements. I heard someone say as they took me away, “She’s on drugs? But she’s so pretty!” Drugs do not discriminate. They take the pretty. They take the ugly. Rich, poor, old, young. No one is immune from this.</p>
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<p>I ended up in rehab where I told counselors I was <i>done</i>—I did not want to live like that anymore. I was on <a href="https://nida.nih.gov/publications/research-reports/medications-to-treat-opioid-addiction/how-do-medications-to-treat-opioid-addiction-work" target="_blank">methadone</a> to treat OUD at the time, and they detoxed me off of everything. I came out of there clean. For almost seven years, I was in 12-step recovery.</p>
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<p>I qualified for multiple studies, including a <a href="https://clinicaltrials.gov/study/NCT04316559?term=trv734&rank=2" target="_blank">21-day inpatient study</a> where I went through several days of moderate withdrawal from methadone. Everybody involved, from the head doctors to the interns, were so nice and worked hard to make me feel as comfortable as possible. I met some people I got really close to, and they would check on me in the housing unit where I stayed during the clinical trial because it was an inpatient study. The studies allow me to feel like I am contributing to making the world better for people with OUD. There aren’t many good things to come out of my addiction, but this is definitely the best.</p>
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<p>Since the studies, I’ve become involved in productive activities, including this article. I am a member of a NIDA Community Advisory Board that makes decisions regarding clinical studies. I've also shared my story at a NIDA conference. I really am grateful for all the opportunities that came out of the studies I participated in.</p>
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<p>My physical health today is pretty good. My mental health, on the other hand, is not so good. I’m not sure whether it’s from the OUD or from some realizations I recently made. I’m going through some anxiety due to <a href="https://medlineplus.gov/posttraumaticstressdisorder.html" target="_blank">post-traumatic stress disorder</a>. I am on a high dose of methadone and, compared to being off opioids completely, I think it makes me mentally cloudy and anxious. On a positive note, the methadone has made it much easier to manage my OUD—I am very grateful it was available when I needed it.</p>
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<p>It’s a very cool process to come out of active addiction and see what kind of person you have been holding back with drugs. I have amazed myself more than once with the things I achieved in recovery. No matter what you have done in your addiction, you are not only salvageable, but you are a strong, beautiful individual. Never give up. Keep coming back.</p>
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<p>We have come a long way in understanding addiction, and I am so lucky to be able to witness the positive changes in society. I think participating in these studies and the other work I am doing is helping these changes along. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to turn such a devastating part of my life into something wonderful. I thank everyone who has allowed me to help and, of course, my family for always being there no matter what I have done to hurt them. Thank you for allowing me to make amends. I dedicate this story to my late cat, McAdoo (2010–2024).</p>
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if (coopMedlinePlusMagazineEng)
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{
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$( "header" ).append( $(coopMedlinePlusMagazineEng) );
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}
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}
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}
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if (readCookie("coop"))
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{$(".insertcoop").hide();}
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else
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{$(".insertcoop").show();}
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</script>
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</body>
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</html>
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